...it's getting better, a little better all the time.
I had a restful weekend after pushing myself too hard Friday night. I felt fine when I got home from work, but did a little too much by trying to (gasp) make dinner. I got dinner made, but then couldn't eat anything because I had to lay down due to feeling all lightheaded and nauseous (probably from the heat). I got back up briefly later, but only to get the kitchen cleaned up and then stumble into bed.
After that lesson, I had to keep reminding myself that even if I think I am feeling better in comparison to how I felt all week, I still can't do what I used to be able to do. My counts are still low, I am still sick and weak. I forget this.
I have to really pace myself and prioritize things now. You'd think after a year of treatments, I would be better at this; but 41 years of having a lot of energy, getting a lot accomplished, and being self-sufficient is sort of a hard habit to break. I seriously forget sometimes that I'm not that girl anymore. Believe it or not, I forget that I am sick. Not for too long though, something always comes along to remind me.
So, for the rest of the weekend I tried to stay out of the heat and take it easy. I slept, read, watched stupid TV, and ate. I got out of the house on Sunday afternoon to get gas and groceries for the week.
I am feeling better every day and seem to be on the upswing from the blahness of last week. I am looking forward to some unblah days in the upcoming weeks before my next treatment.
I'm even thinking of making a road trip to Springfield this coming weekend...I've been stuck in KC for far too long. I need a change of scenery, I need to see my friends, I need to feel that sense of freedom wash over me as I leave the city limits, crank up the music, and just drive away from here.
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You go girl! Everbody needs to get the heck out of "Dodge" every once in a while. Heard anything about "bookclub"? Lela
no word on bookclub...guess we're taking a little summer break or something. i'm just jamming away on 19 minutes. i've gotten to that point where you're thinking about the characters when you're not reading. i love when that happens.
hope you're having a good summer!
I KNOW YOU WILL BE BUSY IF YOU COME DOWN BUT PLEASE CALL ME 838-1352 OR 933-2122. I'M GLAD YOUR FEELING BETTER!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS,D.
What? The little desktop vacation e-card wasn't enough fun and frivolity for you? hmmmmm? lol
I think we should pack up and go find us an island somewhere. Or a mountain lake with cool breezes and lots of shade. And margaritas. :) Yea, that's it!
yea...that's it terry!!! the coolness sounds really good with all this heat.
i LOVED my card, thank you so much. i actually sat here and changed all of the settings several times. my favorite was sunset, with the sound of ocean waves, and a strawberry daquiri. magical!
d, i'm still trying to get everything coordinated with terri and michelle. it's m&e's 17th anniversary on saturday, so they might want to be alone or something, i suppose. althooough...i WAS in their wedding and all.
i'll let you know what we come up with.
always,
~k
what?? let me know what your doing too sweets. we are at the lake for a while & doing some work in clever too....i didnt like the hot flash book...iknow iknow, I actually QUIT in the middle..i just couldnt waste anymore time ya know? NOW i'm reading "were just like you only prettier" it's HI-lar-ious!!! and we bought "the Historian" at Sam's...it's really thick but ash was insistant on it. Ms. jr. journalist said "when Barbara Walters tell's you to read something, ya do it!"
HA....if baba wawa told me to do something i'd probably do exact opposite. but that's my immature rebellious nature. baba hangs out with all of annoying women on that dumb show, so she has lost some credibility/respect from me.
i listen to oprah, but only sometimes.
i've quit books before. life's too short and there are too many good books to waste any time.
i'm about half way thru '19 minutes', i'm really getting sucked in...thinking about the characters in my non-reading time.
weekend seems to be coming together. i decided to take off friday to have an extra day/night down there and i still don't know how i'm going to fit it all in...or have energy for everything.
i know it'll all come together and work out, i'm not trippin' on it...still just so excited to be leaving the familiar and going to see some of my favorite people!!!!
it's always nice to go away so that you can enjoy coming home more.
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