incomplete

not much to say, not much has happened since i last posted on thursday.

weekend came and went. i stayed in and did nothing except a little bit of laundry. slept mostly. my body is achy and tired. and it's really hot/humid out right now.

still trying to get the coumadin dosage right. today my pt/inr was low (blood not thin enough). remember last week it was high (blood too thin)...i attribute that to indulging a little too much over the course of my vacation, toye's b-day, and at tom petty.

red splotches are going away, so i think/hope everything's getting back on track.

just working this week, no more appointments (barring any unforseen issues).

whatever shall i do with all this time to just go to work and come home? probably sleep some more.

Incomplete
By Alanis Morissette

One day I’ll find relief
I’ll be arrived and I’ll be a friend to my friends
who know how to be friends
One day I’ll be at peace
I’ll be enlightened and I’ll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds
Forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

One day my mind will retreat
And I’ll know God and I’ll be constantly one
with her night, dusk and day
One day I’ll be secure
Like the women I see on their 30th anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done

One day I will speak freely
I’ll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I’ll be trusting and spacious, authentic and grounded and whole

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete