Escape

The time is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow
Yeah

I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences, oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,

Please understand
That it's not that I don't care
But right now these walls are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place were I can breathe
I can breathe

I wanna go to a place where I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might
I wanna go to a place where I'm suspended on ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful

Mmmmmmm... beautiful...

Beautiful ~ india.arie

everything is going well. i am feeling good. my counts were low on monday, just as they should be. i go back on friday for my pre-chemo labwork, they should be higher by then, and chemo #33 will be on monday.

right now i am in my usual pre-chemo mode...taking care of things at home and work in preparation for next week.

as far as fun goes, i am going out with cathi and another friend after work on friday. and then tuesday is the annual royal's home opener party at stephanie's house.

i talked to doug a few nights ago and i am planning to go see him in minnesota this summer.

i am also hoping to go see sean in michigan. and to get back down to springfield to see michelle and terri again.

my family is going to arkansas in july for a family vacation on the buffalo national river.

last summer and the summer before were spent focusing on my treatment. this year i want to focus more on spending time and having fun with my friends and family.

of course, everything will be planned around treatments, tests, and how i am feeling. but living and enjoying the summer have been bumped back up on my list of priorities.

watch out world, i am back.