roaring river{taken by my sister-in-law}
- after talking to my doctor, i went to the ER today because my breathing has gotten worse instead of better, and there is now pain in my chest where there was none before the thoracentesis.
- i knew i should have waited until next week to have my lung drained...this is exactly what i thought might happen, but hoped and prayed wouldn't.
- i was just hoping to get some relief sooner rather than later, and thought i would have a better long weekend if i could breathe.
- wrong.
- kori came and picked me up around 4:00pm, we got home around 7:00pm.
- they did chest x-rays, took blood, monitored my heart, etc.
- the main concern after having your lung drained is having a collapsed lung or an air bubble.
- after having the x-rays, they determined that my lung had filled back up with fluid.
- taking out 1350ml yesterday just made more room for the fluid to accumulate again.
- it really hurts when that happens and also makes it very difficult to breathe.
- after making sure everything was okay with my lung, they offered to let me spend the night...i declined.
- i hate hospitals, and hate ER's even more. it takes a lot for me to go to one.
- they offered me stronger pain meds...again, i declined.
- i hate pharmaceuticals, it takes a lot for me to take them. like really bad pain, or cancer.
- i didn't take any pain meds earlier today because i was afraid that it might mask pain that is my body's way of telling me that something is wrong.
- now that i know it's nothing major, i will take pain meds to ease the pain and hopefully get some sleep.
- i will probably have to have my lung drained again next week.
- i will not being going back to menorah if i can help it.
- i need to get going on some kind of chemo soon. this is just another sign that the cancer is doing its evil thing.
- mom & dad left for arkansas today, so that's why kori took me to the hospital.
- he is at the grocery store now picking up some 'soft' foods since i can't chew due to my jaw.
- mom & dad arrived in arkansas around the time we called them to let them know we were going to the hospital.
- now, they are heading home (even though i told them not to) and i feel like complete crap for even calling them to tell them.
- but i probably would've have felt like more complete crap if something major had been going on and i didn't tell them.
- i am very lucky to have the family and friends i do, but i HATE that i am putting them through all of this.
- kori says not to worry about other people and just worry about myself, but that's hard to do when everything about me affects everyone around me now...especially those closest to me.
- so much for being a strong, independent woman.
- i am so sorry i have this stupid disease. i hate it.
3 comments:
from my sis to my mom this week: "what other people think is none of your business" in your case dear.....it's ALL good. we are here and I dont think there is a person you know that would not drive 5 hundred million miles in the darkest storm to be by your side no MATTER what! would LUV to be "needed" by you! you have an AW-some fam....just like YOU!
thanks so much sweets! my family is awesome, as are my friends.
i really didn't wanna bug anyone (as usual) and considered driving myself, but didn't wanna put anyone else in danger. plus i knew i'd have to tell everyone and that it would pi$$ off a lot of people that once again i was too proud (or stupid) to ask for help.
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
i luv you so very much.
Vin,
I could not have said it better.
Kel i check this site sooo many times a day to check on you. Kelly my dear when you made friends you made them for ever.
ALWAYS,
D
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