Ho-Hum Randomness

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(Izabella with her Great-Grandma Martin)

Kori & Becky went to West Plains over the weekend to see Grandma. I wasn't there, but I just had to share that picture cuz I think it's so darn cute. I desperately need to get out of KC and take a road trip to see Grandma, to see my friends in Springfield, to just get away....to just drive away. I've been trapped here since June and I'm going a little crazy, but I really don't have a choice at this point but to stay trapped in my little chemo world. This caged bird needs to fly,and I will eventually...just fly away.

It's Tuesday and I'm back at work. Feels like I never left, I'm actually glad to be back to my 'normal' schedule. How much goofing off can one person do, really? Nah, I did actually get a lot accomplished last week. Not a lot of goofing off took place, with chemo looming ahead I always feel the need to do things while I'm still feeling well enough to do them. The days I wasn't home working on cleaning/organizing projects I had medical stuff to do. I never did get to that utility room, but it's still there and still messy. Christmas tree is still up, and it will be until I feel like taking it down or just get sick of looking at it.

It was so great to see Sean and Michelle last week...I've got the best friends ever. They sustain me.

Another new year's eve passed, I spent mine at home all cozy in my flannel pants and fleece top. No wild crazy parties for this girl. I didn't even pop open the bottle of cheap-o Ballatore champagne that I love oh-so-much. I was up at midnight, but figured what's the point if you aren't going to drink the whole bottle. Without the bubbles it just tastes yucky and goes to waste. Stood outside and listened to the fireworks going off around the city, I couldn't see any from my yard with all the trees but it sounded like people were having fun somewhere. I was glad to just be home safe & warm.

Random blurb seemingly out of nowhere:

My friends and family always make fun of me for not taking pictures even when I've got a camera in my hand. I found this passage in one of my favorite blogger's posts, it explains perfectly why I never take many pictures:

"There were a few times that I thought I should get up and get my camera, to preserve the moment for posterity. But I never wanted to step away from the action, from being a part of the moment. I didn’t want to make that shift from participant to observer that so often happens when you are trying to document things."

My thoughts exactly...I don't want to stop having fun to take pictures of the fun. So, now you all know why I'm always IN the pictures instead of behind the camera taking them. Mystery solved.

Forgive my blurbiness, but I have to express things as I think of them or else I'll forget them. End of blurb.

I'm feeling okay for now, but know that the big crash is coming in the next few days. Sleep is fleeting, hot flashes are flashing, voice is scratchy...all par for the course, all on schedule. Just waiting for the bad days to come and then go so I can start the cycle over again. This 'indefinite' chemo crap is getting pretty old, let me tell ya.

Honestly, I'm glad the whole holiday hoopla is over and it's back to just ho-hum day-to-day life. Sometimes that's plenty.