I always wanted a perfect ending.Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme,
and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity.
--Gilda Radner
Today's blood test showed that my counts are still a bit low, but are on their way back up. I get tested again this coming Friday for my pre-chemo lab work.
In the waiting room today I ran into a girl I met at my last chemo. Janie is a few years older than me and is dealing with her 2nd recurrence, this time to her brain. She can no longer work or drive, yet she is still such a positive, sweet person. I'm hoping we're there at the same time next Monday so I can talk to her again. I felt bad just breezing in for a few minutes while she is trapped there for hours for her weekly chemo and I'm all, "Okay, I've gotta get in my car and get back to work, I'll see you next week!". And I complain about losing my freedom...please.
I haven't gotten the results from Saturday's MRI yet. Probably will in the next few days. The test was easy, just laid in the tube thingy for an hour or so. The worst part is the claustrophobia, the loudness of the machine, and how long you have to lay still. No pain, no prep, and no after-effects though.
Looking forward to: Girls' night with Toye and Steph Wednesday after work. :o)
4 comments:
Isn't it odd how quick our perspective can change? I hope you get a chance to chat with Janie next week. I'm sure you would cheer her up.
I'm glad your counts are on the way up. I'm 7 months out form chemo and all my counts are finally in the normal range, but when I started chemo my white count was over 10,000. Now it is about 6,500. No wonder I catch every cold that comes my way. I wonder if our imune systems ever really come all the way back....
Hope you have a good week.
Deb C
HEY TELL TOYE I SAID HI. ALWAYS,D.
hey deb,
i hope i cheer janie up. like you, she is a very special spirit...i can just feel it. she's been thru so much in her short life, but still has the best attitude and most beautiful smile. she's my hero and she doesn't even know it.
amazingly enough, my crazy body gets my counts back up into normal range toward the end of every cycle. so going into each chemo i know that if i wasn't there my counts would continue to rebound even higher. but then the cancer would also take over. it seems that the stronger my body gets, the stronger the cancer gets.
you'll get there, it takes time (sometimes years) to rebuild from the damage/trauma your body has been through. those drugs are tough stuff. which is fine with me as long as they're tougher than the cancer (but not tougher than us!).
warm hugs,
~k
hey d,
i'll tell her. and i think i'll be seeing vin next week too. WP girls rule!!!!
always,
kel
hey vin....are you back from sanibel???
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