Bored Yet?

We've pretty much established my pattern: chemo, bad weekend/week/weekend, good week/weekend/week. Then chemo again, and start the pattern over again.


I don't want to bore you guys to tears with all the minor details of how I'm feeling each and every day, or all of the extra stuff that goes on in my life; but I do want to keep you updated.

When I'm feeling good, I basically try to do the fun things I can't do when I'm feeling bad. And I also run around trying to get the not-fun things done before I start feeling bad again. Vicious (and sometimes busy) cycle...but I'm working with it and just accepting this pattern as my new normal. I really cherish the times when I feel good and I try to take full advantage of them without wearing myself out too much. When I'm feeling well I have to remind myself that I'm still sick and need some down time then too.

People keep asking me when I'll be done, or how many treatments I have to have. The honest answer to that is I don't know, and the doctor doesn't know. She said "chemo indefinitely" on a form I needed for my HR department...pretty scary seeing those words in black & white. But hey, whatever it takes.

This morning I thought I'd try to go for a walk outside before work, but even at 6:30am when I woke up it was really hot & humid. So instead I opted to stay inside and do one of my Turbo Jam DVD workouts. It felt so good to be moving and not just sitting around like a slug. Other than going for a few walks back when it wasn't so hot outside, this is the first time I've worked out since this all began in May. I took it slow and did a lower impact version, so I wouldn't hurt myself or pass out from exhaustion before I even left for work!

Work was good, I'm trying to get things accomplished there since the next two days will be short ones because I'll have to leave early for those tests. And then of course I'll be off next Friday (8/4) for chemo #4, and the following week I'll just be ghost girl again...there, but not really there.