Chemo #1....Over

I was there from 9am til about 3pm. At one point they had to slow down the Taxotere infusion because I started feeling flushed and short of breath...all went well once they slowed down the drip. Thus far all of the anti- drugs seem to be doing their job just fine!

Dad took me to get some food at Panera (which thankfully stayed down) then came and sat with me to make sure I was okay til a few minutes ago.

I'm feeling fine so far, just very tired. No real food aversions or cravings yet. That really was mostly with the first 4 treatments I had back in 2000, those two drugs are far worse for those symptoms than the ones I'm taking now (so far anyway...knock wood). I think this one will be more about muscle & joint aches, skin rashes, etc....and less about GI stuff. Mostly what I need right now is just to get some good sleep. I am exhausted, but the Decodran has me all amped up.....Ativan, take me away!!!!

Looking forward to a weekend of rest and relaxation, and hopefully going back to work on Monday.

Thanks for all of the well wishes, thoughts, and prayers coming my way today! Have a great weekend everyone!!!

I'll share certain lyrics as they speak to me, here is a song that Melissa Etheridge wrote after going through her battle with cancer:

This is not Goodbye

Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now I go alone
This path I walk, these days of stone

And the angels are calling

I must go away
Wait for me here
Silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe
This is not goodbye

All of my strength, all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest

And the angels are calling and calling

I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near

And the angels are calling and calling
But this is not goodbye.